January 26, 2005:
Last night, Gal & I went to the movies .... was pretty funny. He
wanted to see Sideways and I wanted to see Million Dollar Baby. At
first, we both wanted to see both so we didn't care ... but then the
more I thought about Million Dollar Baby being nominated for an Oscar,
the more I wanted to see it. So we're doing Roe, Sham, Boe in order to
pick the movie. I won!
If you haven't seen Million Dollar Baby
... go see it. Before someone ruins it for you .... not in the Sixth
Sense kind of way but enough that you're expecting the ending. It is a
really good movie! Leaves you with those pondering thoughts afterwards
....
Which of course ... is where I am. In a nutshell, it's
about dreams ... what drives you so that everything else in the world
doesn't matter because you've got that one thing. I remember when I was
a kid, I wanted to be an architect so badly. I loved it ... from
sitting down at the drafting table, to the feel of the mechanical
pencil, to the smell of the blueprint machine. I wanted to be an
architect with all my heart ....
In Vermont, I attended a
tradeschool that really drove home the love of architecture. In Idaho,
I was taking an autocad class but I couldn't take Autocad when we moved
in the middle of the year because it was full. So they put me in a
semester class with a bunch of seniors. Angie & I were the only
girls ... I remember the teacher saying that we had little or no talent
in drafting... and he never gave out A's. I worked my ass off in that
class ... but LOVED it ... and low & behold, I got an A.
But
life happens, you know? And I never got my degree in Architecture.
Running away from home put a hindrance in getting a scholarship to Cal
Poly which was a definite possibility since I was a straight A student.
My family was pushing for the Navy & Annapolis but that isn't what
I wanted. But anyways ... I ended up not pursuing my dream, which
leaves me thinking ... what's driving me now?