January 20, 2005:
Sometimes I think we forget to look around and look at all the good
things going on in our lives instead of looking at the failures.
Granted, we hold ourselves to higher standards than others may but
instead of beating ourselves up, we should just recognize it's a tiny
blip on the screen.
Professionally, I have never felt so
comfortable and happy doing what I do now. I really do LOVE my job,
which is the first time in a long time. Some days suck but overall, I
get to break stuff which I'm really good at. I get a sense of what's
wrong and I can find all the little things to improve upon. It's cool
when you're good at what you do ... decent pay, small company and
definite potentional to make some cash in the future when they sell the
company or go public. Now that's cool.
I'm also back in school,
learning some new things about technical writing. Along with that I'm
going to be taking some fun classes, learning fun stuff. And that's
always made me happy ...
Romantically, it has been interesting
but over the past week instead of having focus on something that wasn't
real, I just turned away from it. Surprisingly, I found myself hopeful
about the future instead of beating myself up about the past. I guess
when you do let go, you really do become free.
Financially,
things are looking up because of my job. I'm slowly getting things back
on track ... money into savings, debt is going down and things are
falling into place.
So even though everything isn't absolutely
the pure moments of happiness that I'd like ... things are looking up.
I'm lucky to have a good job, enough money to play around with, friends
that are amazing and the ability to overcome anything that's put in
front of me. I've been in worse spots ... this is nothing.